A great writer, a great man, and a great friend – Rex. Another great guest post. Enjoy!!
I am What I Am
I am the last person in America you can insult with impunity: I am white, Anglo-Saxon, protestant, male, straight, Southern, Democrat, second marriage with step kids, religious but not zealous, unrich, right-handed, smoker-drinker, hazel-eyed, graying hair, 30 pounds over “ideal” weight, meat-eating, non gun-toting, destroyer of the utopian future world we were all promised.
Don’t believe me? Watch any on-screen news or entertainment: I’m rude, crude, backward, burping, ignorant, and arrogant about it.
Don’t believe me? Rerun any of the Super Tuesday election news coverage and commentary pre, during, and post; commentaries included.
Conclusion: we can’t do anything right.
Well, new society dawning: make up your mind.
Not long ago I entered a downtown Chattanooga building and held the door’s momentum at bay for a lady behind me. Very curtly she said, “I can open my own door, thank you.” And I was dismissed.
Four doors down later on Market Street I did the same for a guy with a bunch of delivery boxes. “Thanks, man!”
Given his youth, uniform and physique I’m he was quite capable of backing through the door, or for that matter removing it, by himself.
Didn’t matter I did both for the same reason: I had the power to let the door’s momentum smack ‘em both. How self-absorbed would I have been if I had done so? Not cool.
A few years later I was in a pizza place watching a Braves game on a Saturday afternoon; just one other guy, the bartender, a 35-ish lady at the other end of the bar, and me.
Her, “Anyone know what time it is?
Me, “It’s 4:15.”
Her, “Thank you, and no, it doesn’t mean you can buy me a drink.”
Okay, I was in a foul mood; my girlfriend’s mother was visiting I was avoiding.
Me, “Ma’m, I can get three like you for a week’s paycheck on Governor’s Drive.”
She huffed out but the bartender bought my next beer.
Has it come to the point where we think everyone is out exclusively for their own gratification? That courtesy is just an iceberg tip on a hidden agenda? That no one has a right to be angry with you but you have a right to judge never having set one step in another’s shoes? That you don’t need to know their story because yours is all-encompassing?
Retool. Gentlemen, we need to grow more backbone and less false bravado and oh-poor-me lifestyles. Oh, and learn when to bow out gracefully and know when to run.
Belligerence is not strength and acceptance is not weakness.
Female persons: make up your mind, willya?! You see fluid dynamics guys deal in absolutes. You want us sensitive then swoon over the lumberjack. You want us manly but we risk you seeing us as coarse.
For my 1,632 square inches of the world here’s the deal: I drive a car which is two years from getting a “classic” tag (the AARP card of autos), I let God wash it if He wants to (rain). It gets me point A to point B. This is my home/apartment; I live here. I do not press my underwear, hell, I don’t wash them until I run out. Alicia can wash ‘em if she wants to if not, fine, too. I usually don’t do dishes until I am nearly out or cranking up to cook something elaborate. Now I have a dishwasher; a better place to store the dirties.
I do not get ballet but recognize its place in art and culture and love the symphony. I love my music souvenirs, from the rock that held the door open for decades at Muscle Shoals Sound, to Mickey Buckins’ drumsticks, to the rubber band the Spinners gave me, to my autographed playbills and drumheads, to my “Casablanca” poster. Alicia gave me one whole room just for that stuff.
I don’t stay coiffed or in late fashion or design: jeans (from JCP or Walmart), T-shirt (right now mine says, “Huntsville est. 1805”), and open Hawaiian shirts. I keep facial hair because Alicia likes it and so do I (even though it’s harder to shave now than with no beard). I am untattooed and unpierced but my scars speak for me.”The look”, fashion, and pop psychology, like ear candles, come and go. Real is forever and easily maintained. Just because your feathers are ruffled don’t make you Christ-on-the-Cross.
Enough. I am what I am. Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar.
So come down off your cross, leave it in the “might access later” file, resurrect, and go have a little fun.
In the meantime stop building crosses; you’re runnin’ out of people to help carry them.
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