It’s the holidays, the end of the year, and when things tend to wind down, or up, depending on your view. And what a long, strange year this has been. For all of us. I don’t think anyone expected 2020 to turn out the way it has. And I don’t think any of us saw any of this when we started making our “Five year plans” back in 2015.
Looking back at 2015, it seems like an entirely different life with an completely different version of myself. Both my parents were alive, as were many other family members that have been lost since then. Several dear friends were still alive as well. And then there are all the moves – 4 moves in 5 years. And each place has been a home, filled with love, laughter, friends, family, food, wine and lots of food. New cars, new loves, new lives, new friends, new….me. It is amazing how much life can change in a the short time of 5 years. Or even one year.
This year has gone from horrible panic to peaceful bliss. I started out not knowing where to go or what to do, hear broken, trying to peace back a chattered life. And then this year happened. And even with the pandemic, even with all the riots and murder hornets and closing and shelter in place orders and others trying to cause pain and dismay…my heart flourished. My little life grew and widened and deepened, to the wonderful fullness that it is. But I had to lose so much first.
To me that is what this year has been about. This is the first year that I truly had no one and nothing tying me down, weighing on my heart or soul. This is the year that I have been able to truly establish my life, for me. And it has been magnificent. I have left the shattered emptiness behind, the tears, and hurt, the pain and the all of it. And I have built this life on a solid foundation of faith and love and hard work.
And so now, as the year comes to a close, I wrap it up with a big red bow. I say goodbye to all that this year has meant, all that it has built, all that I lost so that I can have room to keep what I have gained.
Life is short. Enjoy it while you can and make the most of each moment,. each day, each friendship and each relationship that you have. Live life like it is the gift that it is. Built it, and make is amazing.
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