Recalculating

It takes a lot of work to transform a life. To change the trajectory and momentum you must have a strong force to stop the inertia. To start over is to accept that every action has an equal and opposite reaction. In simple terms, it takes a lot. It takes a lot of work, a lot of will, a lot of tears, rearranging, recalculating, re-figuring, reworking, rethinking, re-shifting, and most of all, a lot of being uncomfortable and confused.

So what do you do when you have that second chance at life? You figure out what your dreams are and what will make you happy. And how do you do that? You listen to your own heart, your own soul, deep down when it’s dark. Then you do the work to make it happen. And you pray. But growth is rarely pain free or completely comfortable. In fact it is often our discomfort and distress that is the precipice for change. Sometimes it takes a long while, sometimes it doesn’t.

I moved to a new state to start a new life, and in 6 short months I have accomplished that which I set out to do. My dreams are coming true, that for which I have prayed and worked so hard is coming to fruition. In 6 short months, I have worked hard to transform the landscape of my decisions.

And to be honest it has been grueling and fun and exhausting and exciting and extremely rewarding. It has been a lot of physical work – packing and unpacking, lifting, arranging boxes, pictures, clothes and things I hold most dear. Deciding what to keep and what to throw away. It has been tilling, planting and weeding the garden. It has been creating everything out of nothing but a dream, a shard of light in a universe of darkness.

There has been a lot of praying too. Where I fall short is trusting that what has been set into action will work out for the best. But ins;t that always one of the hardest parts of life? Working and wanting so much, but having to trust that it will all work out in the end. But it always does, doesn’t it?

And now there are offers of interesting projects with intelligent people, conversations with publishers and too many exciting possibilities to mention for fear of jinxing them. Indeed, everything I have prayed for, save for one thing, has happened and been given to me. Oh, and that one thing will be so sweet and amazing when it finally happens.

Life is short. So go for. Recalculate to make your world what you want. Excuses are for cowards, so stand up, face your fears head on, work hard, play hard, pray harder and trust the most.