Purpose and Desire

“Your purpose is to discover your world and then with all your heart give yourself to it.”

Purpose is defined as the reason for which something is done or created or for which something exists. The definition of desire is a strong feeling of wanting to have something or wishing for something to happen. For me the differentiation is extremely important, and for most others too. But how?

It is important to know the different between our purpose and what we want do to. For instance, our job may not be our purpose. Or, if we are lucky, the two can intersect. But first we must understand the difference and apply them to our lives.

My job is being a writer. This brings me sop much joy, as I love it and am thankful every single day for it. But, that is not my purpose. F or a long time I have struggled with my purpose, like many others. And then I started to look around. And I started listening to what my closest friends have said.

My job is being a writer. This brings me sop much joy, as I love it and am thankful every single day for it. But, that is not my purpose. For a long time I have struggled with my purpose, like many others. And then I started to look around and started listening to what my closest friends have said. Over and over I keep hearing the same thing, so maybe it is time to accept it.

Because maybe our purpose is what seems to follow us know matter where we go. Maybe it is what happens naturally, without us trying, or looking or even wanting.

When I look at my life there is a common theme. That no matter where I am, who I am with or what I am doing, people seek me out. They tell me their secrets, they ask for help, they trust me with special things. and I like that even though I do not seek it out. The theme seems to be for me to serve and help others.

In the past I have taken care of my family – both my parents as they were terminal, the estate afterwards, my nephews and my sister. But I did all of it alone and while it was a joy to help those I loved, it depleted me completely.

So what I now seek is my purpose, with a partner. I know what I can do alone, and if I can do all of that, then imagine what I can do with a partner in crime? I want to build a life bigger than my own. I want a purpose larger than myself. But I want a partner to do it with. I have poured my heart into taking care of my parents and my sister’s family. Now, I want to pour my heart into building a life with another.

I want to plan and work toward goals together. I want to help build a bigger life together and fulfill a purpose together. I want to serve together, serve my partner and his family, our family together. I want to pray together, reach together and make life spectacular together, to work hard together and comfort each other, together. This is something that I feel deep down, where the soul meets the mind and confers with the heart. It is the precipice on which and stand an willingly fall into.

This is the next step for me. I have spent time alone, I have had friends visit me, and I am the happiest when serving and helping others. My desire is to be writer, but my purpose is to serve – with a partner. So it is for which I pray.

Life is short. Make it matter. Build a life that matters. Be aware that the world is bigger, wider, and more complex that we as humans could ever imagine. But somewhere out there, is your purpose. Go find it.

Much

It seems that I have not been writing as much. Maybe this is true. But I have been living a lot. And sometimes when you are busy living you don;t always have time to write. Indeed, there have been things I wanted to write down, even taken notes for later. And then the mood and inspiration passes. So it’s not so much writer’s block as it is living.

Is this a good thing? Yes and no. While it is good to live life, laugh, have fun and find the joy, especially in these times, it is also important to take time for what you love. It is important to take time for that creative part of yourself, those things that give life meaning and give you that spark.

Whether it is writing. playing music, painting, dancing, tending a garden or whatever, we must take the time to feed our creative parts. This is because what we enjoy doing is an integral part of us, our psyche and our personality. To cut that off to disconnect an important part of individuality.

Life is short. Always create in some way. Find ways to do what you love, even if time is short. Because ultimately it is.