Four Years

Hey Mom, it’s me. Today is four years since you have been gone. I thought this was supposed to get easier with time. I guess it does a bit with every day life. I don’t cry every day like I did before during that first year you were gone.

But the anniversaries are still a bitch. I thought I had this anniversary handled. It has been a great year with everything I want and all my prayers answered. I am happy in the first time since you died. Finally happy. And it feels so good.

But this week I have been a miserable mess, and today especially. This has completely caught me off guard because while I know you never get over grief, I thought this anniversary would be easier. It isn’t.

Miss you and love you so much. Please visit me in my dreams.