We all want things in life. And one of the most pure and beautiful things is to sleep like you did when you were a child. To be able to sleep with such peace and such clarity and to be so relaxed and safe that you can sleep as if you don’t have a single care in the world because you don’t. To sleep so soundly and so deeply because you know there is nothing on the planet or in the universe that could harm you. In that moment you trust the world and everything in it so completely all the walls are down and all the defenses are going and the only thing left is rest.
There’s a place we don’t often get to as adults. Even deep down the witching hour, whete the soul in the heart Converse and intertwine. Indeed those are usually when the monsters and the demons come out. Indeed even if our surroundings are safe, sometimes it’s our own insides and our own conscience and our own demons deep within that keep us from sleeping well. To be free of those as well, is to be truly at peace.
And how many people can truly say that they sleep well at night, that’s safe and that sound and that peaceful? How many people can truly trust the outside as well as the inside? How many people can truly say that they’re not fearful of the world within their own minds and their own Hearts?
This past week I had the experience of sleeping so soundly and so peacefully I can only say I finally was able to sleep as I did as a child. Just like I was a little girl safe in my parents house, with all my innocence and Hope intact. Before my heart was ever broken, before any tears were cried, before I was ever disappointed by anything at all. I slept as I did when I only knew love and happiness and life was perfection. This weekend I slept once again as if nothing and no one in the world could ever harm me. I slept again as if I were so safe, there were no walls needed, much less Armour or any sense.
And when I woke up, the sleep was so sound hours had passed just like 5 minutes. And yet I woke up refreshed, happy, rested and completely relaxed. Indeed after years of dealing with death and drama, finally balance has been sustained. Balance to the point of such peace that complete an utter rest as possible.
And when you rest like a child it’s not just sleeping, it is so much more. It’s when the heart and the soul and the mind and all the emotions of Being Human are finally at peace as well. And the demons dare not go because they don’t exist anymore.
Indeed I have fought well tooth & Nail over the last few years. Deeling with drama and family and death and more drama and other people’s situations, and hatred and anger and having my heart broken, and loss and grief. Yes I have fought all of those demons and won. And now I can truly rest,bfrom my soul to my heart amd back,again. It is the rest that only comes from being safe. And for the first time in many years oh, I was safe. And that moment, and that bad, and that house, I was completely and utterly safe and protected.
And something beautiful and amazing happens when you are able to get that kind of rest with that kind of peace. It is an Indescribable feeling that comes over you, and a happiness that is beyond Joy. It is a place from which love can truly flow. It doesn’t mean that life is perfect, or that there can’t be improvements. It just means you are so truly happy and blessed Where You Are that wherever you go next will be just fine. And you are safe in the knowledge and it will all be okay, because it already is.
And so I move forward, and this new place of peace, light, and contentment. But most of all, a peace that pierces the soul as nothing else can. A peace that envelops you and wraps you up like a warm blanket on a cold Winter’s Night. And all I can do is drop to my knees and thank God.
Life is short. And when you find that you are able to finally sleep and rest in the truest form, that is when you know it is truly a life well-lived and well-loved. I’ve often said that which gives us peace will make us happy. I’m here to tell you now that’s the absolute truth.
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