What a difference a year makes. So much can happen, both good and bad. Growth can be exponential. Entire lifetimes can be lived in 365 days. And how often we look back in life and think we were were 1 year ago, 2, 5 or maybe even 10. We make mistakes, learn, we grow, we teach, we live. Each and each path is different. That is part of what makes life magic.
And so it is that I sit here I my bed, tired after a full day of work and play, pondering my path for the last year or so. I cannot even begin to explain the thoughts or emotions. A year ago today was the best thing that ever happened to me. A year ago, a break up from a very horrible and toxic relationship freed me from so many horrible moments, potential pitfalls and guaranteed heartaches. I didn’t see as such at the time, but hind site is 20/20. It seemed very painful, but it tooknme from where I thought I should be, and set me on the path God had for me. Now, the relarionship I have, my partner, a man with whom I am equally yoked, is truly amazing.
That life I left behind, so different from today. I thought about how my world turned upside down and now what seemed so foreign and uncomfortable is part of my every day life. I am in a different area, a different job, writing different things. The landscape of my life, not what it was. In this moment, I feel like I am where I am supposed to be, like I am finally on my path and on my way.
But I never would have gotten here, without first leaving my old life behind. Growth can be a painful part of life. But when the dust settles and the clouds clear, we are left with our purest version of ourselves, because everything else has been stripped away. And from there is where we grow. I guess God prunes us when he sees fit, when he sees that we are going and growing in too many directions. He prunes us for His purpose.
And when He sees that you are not on the right path, he will turn the world upside down to you can step where you should. I should not have been where I was a year ago or with whom. That is not the life I was ever meant to live. And I thank God every day, when I see contrast now.
As I sat at dinner tonight, a treat after some shopping, I thought about how blessed I have been. Love is all around me, so much so that I cannot escape. Not that I would want to. It has taken a while, but I have fallen in love with my life.
I do not know what they future holds. What I do know is that I am happy on This Valentine’s Day. I am most happy with those who are I my life, close to me, feeding my love, hopes, dreams and more. I am excited for what it means. I am happy with the love that I have found. I am blissful.
Love and bliss are rare in these modern times. And oh do I plan to celebrate.
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