All of us who have been through a hard time can say that when the laughter returns, it erupts from a place that is so much deeper than before. It boils up from the tips of your toes, from the depth of your soul, from the bottom of your heart and spills out. It is that deep belly laugh that truly originates from joy.
When you have been through a hard time where laughter was scares and tears were plenty, you appreciate that laughter as the miracle it truly is. To me joy is a miracle because it is the other side to the coin. And both sides celebrate our humanity.
“Today I choose life. Every morning when I wake up I can choose joy, happiness, negativity, pain… To feel the freedom that comes from being able to continue to make mistakes and choices – today I choose to feel life, not to deny my humanity but embrace it.” – Kevyn Aucoin
When we go through painful experiences, it shows our humanity in the fact that we can feel, and cry, and ache and empathize. We can also comfort and hold and find solace in the humanity of others. IT is all part of the human experience. As hard as life is. would we really want to live a life with no pain or discomfort? How boring would that be? And if we never felt any kind of emotional discomfort, how would we grow or become more compassionate human beings? How could we truly comfort a friend with a broken heart at the end of a relationship if we had never felt that same pain ourselves?
“I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge. That myth is more potent than history. That dreams are more powerful than facts. That hope always triumphs over experience. That laughter is the only cure for grief. And I believe that love is stronger than death.” – Robert Fulghum
So for me, that laughter represents the return to myself, the return to life, the return of joy and of love and peace and all that is wonderful. It is my life being returned to back to me. And the truth is that I have missed my life, while I was away. And I have laughed more in recently than I have in the past two years. And it feels wonderful. Because when you have truly seen the bottom, and felt it in the deep and dark places no one talks about at night when it is quiet, then that laughter is freedom.
“Find a place inside where there’s joy, and the joy will burn out the pain.” – Joseph Campbell
And so here I am, giggling and laughing just like I used to, but even more. Because I appreciate life more, after having been through the dark and difficult times. I have a thriving career, wonderful friends, an amazing love, and peace. Yes, life is good and I am happy. And I Am laughing all the way to this wonderful, fulfilling, amazing life God has given me.
When you get to this place, even when bad times or bad days or sadness comes, it still doesn’t rock you to your core. You still have joy and happiness in reserves, And mayne that is what it is, having enough happiness internally to get you through the hard times. And I thought I had that myself. But when something so huge happens that is does deplete you of your reserves, it takes some time to build up again. But it does happen. You will get there. My heart is free and my spirit feels lighter and brighter than ever. Even this month, with the first anniversary approaching, as hard as it will be, I know it will be OK. But it has taken a year.
And that is how it is with life. So don’t be afraid of your own humanity. Feel whatever needs to be felt. Because it will lead you back to the laughter, back to love and joy and peace and …life. And when you get there, you know you have earned that laughter. And you feel it in every fiber of your being.
“Laughter is the sun that drives winter from the human face.” – Victor Hugo
Spring is coming after a long cold winter. Life is renewing, and if you listen close, you can har the giggles and laughter of those new little green leaves of your new life growing.