The Birthday Month

It is a special day when you are born, because you were born out of love, into to love. That is what I was raised to believe. And that’s one of the traditions that I carry with me. And so it is that this is my birthday month.

And so it is that I will celebrate everything this month.  I couldn’t last year at this time, due to my wonderful father’s health, but this year, I have a few years to make up for.

SO this year, this month, I will celebrate every day. And isn’t that how life should be in the first place?  To celebrate every day you  are gifted on this earth.  Celebrate and be thankful for every day that we are loved and appreciated by those around us.  Some don’t see the love, but if you get still and you look hard enough, you will see it feel it.

I have a theory in life, that whatever it is that you are looking for, you will find. If you look for the bad, the twisted, the dark or reasons to be suspicious and distrust others, then that is what you will find. Conversely, if you look for the good, the love, the bright and reasons to trust others, then that is what you will find as well.

That doesn’t mean being naive or a doormat. It means be careful for that which you looks because that is what you will find.

And this month especially, I intend to find every reason to celebrate.

The Love of it All

One of the hardest things for us to do is to take care of ourselves, to put ourselves first when dealing with life and the world.  Why is that?  I don’t know really.  But I do know that there can be horrible results when we don’t We get tired, get down and burned out. I know this first hand after the past two years.

A new year and I have started doing something that I have not done in a very long time  taking care of myself first.  And there result have been quite fantastic. I feel better and am much happier. To take care of yourself, you must pay attention to your moods, emotions and your body.  Evaluate how you feel every day.  Get rid of anything, anyone or any situation that doesn’t make you feel fabulous.

I wasn’t able to do this until now, because life circumstances predicated a different path at that time.  And sometimes that is just how life is, so you have to take advantage while you can.  And taking care of yourself now will help make those messy and hard times in life bearable.

I am taking more time to write, especially in my hand written journal. It feels good to actually put pen to paper and write about such private and sacred things close to me. There is exercise (finally!) and taking time to read. There is also time to rest, which often gets overlooked.  But it is so important to rest the body, spirit and mind.

Lately things have been quiet, as the start of the year takes off.  Quiet, but busy.  Three new contracts, including my first contract in the UK.There is a rip out of the country, the first in a few years.  There was one trip to the beach before the new year, and it is time for more. There is getting used to the Macbook Pro, and all the differences it has with my PC. There is time re-connecting and building with friends. And there is building the happy life that I want.

But it is even more than that.  It is building relationships on a deeper level, which translates into building a life on a deeper level.  Relationships of all kinds; friendships, co-workers, and most definitely, love. Whom you choose to have as a partner is extremely important.  The relationship can be a source of life and love, or it can drain you of all your energy.

My relationship with my ex lacked depth, he lacked depth. Which is why he fled real life to build fantasies with hookers and strippers.   The ex still reads my blog daily. (I wonder what you a looking to find. Details of my love life, perhaps?  None, except what you have heard is true and he is bigger and better than you). The relationship will not be good when you date someone with whom you are not equally yoked. So someone to plan and build life with, and that we match on depth and breadth of the soul.

Happiness is choice, a decision that you make every morning.  Not hat life is perfect, or ever will be.  But, it will be a lot better if I enjoy the ride, or most of it any way. So as I type in bed, with kitties snuggling with me, I am thankful fo this life and the love of it all. And I will turn out the light, and snuggle down into a warm bed with a warm heavy blanket and drift off to sleep with a happy heart.