Failure

I wrote this seven years ago. It is very applicable today as well.  With this year ending and another beginning, with getting over the worst two years of my entire life, I am ready to get back to everything again.  I am ready to build my dreams and to build my life, my dreams.

Failure if Not an Option

In this life, day and age, it seems that somethings are just certain.  Life, death, taxes, a broken heart (or two), laughter, tears, good music, bad days, hot coffee, warm tea are just a few of the things that we are certain to experience in life.  And yes, even failure.  But lately it seems that I have made a decision…that when it comes to my goals and dreams, failure is not an option.  That my dreams will be made into reality, and there is no other option.

 

How can this be, especially now, in “this” economy?  You have to decide that you have a steelframe inside you, you have to decide that where you are now doesn’t matter, it is where you want to be that is important.  And it may take a while, and it will certainly take a lot of hard work, but you just decide that none of that matters.  Only your goal, your dream.  And then you get mad, get stubborn and reach way down deep inside you, and pull up that steel determination, that unbreakable Will and make it happen.

 

Don’t worry about the hard work, don’t worry about the long hours, sleepless nights, blood sweat and tears…you simply decide that failure is not an option, put your goggles on, your head down and do whatever it takes to make it happen.  Because you can beat the odds…after all someone has to, why not you?  You just decide that it will be so, and you have a sick work ethic, and ridiculous determination, incredible perseverance.  Every. Day. because that is what it takes.

 

This year, I will have a great writing career, I will meet my financial goals, I will enjoy a great vacation (notice I did not say I will learn to spell…you do have to know your limits!).  Failure is not an option.

 

GRIT

 

I am determined.

Sweat on my brow.

Heart in my Throat.

I am at the starting line.

 

The sound of my heart

Pounds in my head.

Cheers ring in my ears.

They say I can’t.

But I won’t let them win.

 

I will defy all expectations.

All definitions.

All Doubt.

All Rules.

 

The naysayers will walk away.

Head Down.

My Will silencing them.

 

They don’t know the steel frame inside me.

I am determined.

My will pushing me to succeed

Down the hard

Long.

Rocky.

Road ahead. Ada 5/00

What Brought Me Here

I have had to outsmart life
Struggle with pain and loss
Outwit them all
Be so tough and strong

To get through this life
To get through this year
All the battles I won
And lost and sacrificed

So much pain, so many tears
Never thought it would end
And then I am in front of you
This is what brought me here

And after all of it
In your arms I can be
And I can rest
And I can dream
And find peace

Resting Heart

I’ve sung together with angels
Faught bravely with my anger
Climbed over the highest mountains
Spent time hiding in such danger

I have laughed with the devil
Spent many nights in anquish
Flown magestic with the eagles
And been left to languish

Risked falling from top a highwire
Delicate balance at every play
Fooled the wisdom of the wiseman
Walked a thousands miles every day

I have lied a million truths
Cried enough tears to flood the earth
Crawled up from the darkest hole
witnessed the miracle of beauty’s worth

I’ve risen with the moon
Soared miles above the sun
And kept the secrets of the dead
To see if you were the one

I want to kiss those lips of yours
To breathe in what you breath out
for even a second it’s worth it
Just to hear love lived out loud

I’ve been through every jungle
Slept with sheep in the lion’s den
Fought with the souls of angels
Been to the beginning and back again

I’ve carried the weight of heavy burdens
And of too much pain to mention
Shed all my tears and sorrows
stripped down in the mirror of convention

Seen the weakness of the mind
And the strength of faith and love
The torture of the morning light
And the mercy from God above

I have climbed mountains and valleys
Spent many nights talking to strangers
Made mistakes by all judgements
Traveled hidden and cloked in danger

Standing bare and stripped of pride
Being Humbled by life’s very nature
The are no illusions before me now
Just wanderlust for this adventure

To hold your hand and sing
To be lovers breathing out and in
Take a chance on this course my dear
Now set this amazing journey to begin

What if it is right and real then
all the miles I have travelled
Will be worth it and pale in the end
To the story that is unravelled

Oh I have run with the worst
And bluffed cards with the best
Broken my heart too many times
But now in your heart mine can rest

Ada 12/15/2017