Fear


 “Do one thing every day that scares you

It is no secret that we all have fears and insecurities. We all have scars and baggage, especially if you are above a certain age.  And most of the time the fears and insecurities we have are not rational.  They are figments of our imagination, but that doesn’t make them seem any less real.

They say that you should do something that scares you every day.  This is pretty much every day to me. Every day I am doing things that scare me.  I have a lot of fears and insecurities in this new part of life. Moving forward is exhilarating but terrifying. And to be honest I have no idea what I am doing.

So here is a list:

Life:  Life right now life is pretty scary.  I know that I write about looking forward and moving forward, and I am, but there is also fear that goes with that. This is a new time in my life and a new way of life.  Figuring out how to build everything up from scratch is a pretty big undertaking.  For the most part I think I have it all under control, but some times I do look around a wonder what I am doing and how am I going to do it?

Love:  This is a big one. I thought I was done with searching  I thought I had found the one, the love of my life and the man I would marry…but he wanted hookers and strippers more than he wanted me. What if men on my age group are just like that?  What if all men in my age range lie and cheat? What if I will never fall in love again?  What if no one ever loves me? More than someone loving me I want to love and have someone who will accept that love. And what about having a family?  I want children and that is scary too.

Work:  It ‘s a big deal and I love what I do.  But this project is big.   It scares me a little.

Moving: It’s always a pain to move…and this is no exception.  But this move is different. And it has a lot more furniture because of all of my parents stuff. Finding another house as great as this one is going to be tough, and the move is going to be tough too.

Myself:  I have some insecurities about weight and sexiness.  I have stayed the same weight for a while now, and once I get back to the gym it will come off, it is just getting there.

Why put all of this out there?  Especially when there is the power of attraction?  If you put fear out there won’t it come back to you?  Well, I think you have to acknowledge it, what ever it is that makes you scared or insecure in order to let them go.  How can you face your fears an get over them if you first do not admit what they are?

And in admitting these are my fears and insecurities they suddenly loose the grip that they have.  Because I am human and imperfect and flawed and scared.  But it is our scars that make us our most beautiful and our most human.

I also believe that happiness is a decision.  And every decision you make is either driven love or fear. And I choose to make decisions of out of love.  So I am going to love myself enough to say that yes I have fears, and I am going to succeed anyway.  I will over come them, I will make them obsolete.

And that is how you handle fear.

 

 

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