Summer of Love and Prayer

This summer it has begun.  Everything for which I have prayed, I have received. And this is the summer that I resume my life. This is the summer that my life will be about love, and friendship and laughter, and prayer.

When you have gone through a hard time you have a choice: Either let it drag you down and hold you down like a ball and chain, or use that hard time as a stepping stone to rise above. I choose the latter rather than the former.

When you choose to let it hold you down, that is when you turn angry and bitter.  That is when you become a vehicle for hatred and vindictiveness. I have known people like that. So consumed with anger and bitterness to the point that they are toxic to all they come across.

Why do people choose that route?  I don’t know.  To me it takes so much more energy to stay angry and bitter that it does to move on being happy, allowing all that is good to return to you.

I have long said that which gives you peace will make you happy, And I have reached a point in my life where I am at peace. And doors are opening, new possibilities are coming, because I am not wasting time and energy on things that make me unrested, or agitated or that are just unnecessary drama.  When you get rid of those negatives, positives start coming in.

I want to shout it out, I want to dance in the moonlight, I want to celebrate with those who are the nearest ad dearest to me.  I want to hold them close and thank them for being in my life, through all of it.

All I know that finally there is peace in my life, there is love, there are wonderful friendships and good times to be had.  The clouds have scattered and the light is streaming in.  Why hang on to old issues?  There is an entire world out there of adventures and I will be first in line, during this the summer of love and prayer.

Adventures at the Compound

It has been the family homestead for many years.  And now it has passed on to the next generation. I had been down there before, but this time was different.  This time there was a joy to be where they were.  There was no sadness, no depression, no tears, only love.

And as I walked around the property, I felt it deep in my hart, that this is now mine.  They wanted it passed to us, they knew I would be the one to take care of everything. It is a right of passage, and it is one of love.

And so I walked around that wonderful, beautiful space and knew they were happy with it in my hands.  I take care of it, keep it up and sell it for the family. I know that they are smiling, I know that the butterflies, frogs, bees and dragonflies are their way of smiling to me. And so from here on out, it is only adventure and good times at the family compound.  Adventures are already starting in earnest, and will continue.

Yes, this time was different, as I am finally coming into my own in this place in the family. And that is an adventure all it’s own.

The Anniversary

One year;  12 months; 52 weeks; 365 days; 8,760 hours; 525,600 minutes. That is how long it had been on July 13, 2017, since my heart broke for the first time and my mother died. That was when normal was no longer the normal, that was when my life turned upside down and when I learned some of the toughest lessons in my life.

And then I wrote the Walk with Mom Series.  And finally set the grief free.

And so on the first anniversary of my wonderful Mother’s death, I was truly able to celebrate her life and her legacy to me.  I planted flowers in the garden in her honor. My sister and I remembered her, we laughed as we talked about her mischievous ways.

I thought the day would be horrible. And indeed I did cry for the loss, for how I have missed her,  But more than anything there was Peace.  Finally, after a long, hard, horrible year, I am at Peace with my mother’t passing.  I loved her, she was my best friend, and she always will be.  I will miss her every day.  But she would want me to live. And so I shall.

And so this anniversary represented peace and love.  She made me strong. And I will make her proud with the life that I am building.

I love you Mom, Always.