No one is every prepared to loose their parents, even though it is the natural process of life. We will all loose our parents, we will all feel that grief, we will all share in that story. And even though it is something that we will all go through, the story and relationships and grief are all different. This has been mine.
Thank you for going through this journey with me, throughout this year and in this series. I had not been able to sit down and write about what happened until now. With taking care of Dad full time, working full time, trying to handle a relationship, and then the break up of the relationship and Dad’s death…it’s been a busy year where I felt like I had lost everything.
But the fact is that I haven’t. The fact is that my parents loved me enough for a lifetime. My parents loved me enough to teach me and give me to tolls needed to love a wonderful life, even if it is without them. And that is their gift to me.
And it is in writing this that I am able to let go. It has been a hard year, but it is time to let go of the sadness, the loneliness, the grief. It is still a process, but with this series, with this anniversary, I move forward, like they would want, like I want. I have wonderful friends who are my heart and soul and family. I have blood family who loves me and will always be there. And so it is with this, and with the love of my parents that I LIVE.