Every day you must get up and make a dedicated decision that you are going to be better, do better than you did the day before. I have found that if I don’t, things easily get off track, especially in this process of healing. You must decide, every day, that you are going to be happy, or at least work hard to get closer to it. So, every day I am dedicated to praying, meditating, listening to my body, my mind, my thoughts, the voice of God and everything that serves me in the journey.
But what exactly does that mean? It sounds good and all that, but what does it look like? How do you do it?
I don’t know. But for me, it is making that decision every morning. It is figuring out what I want that day, that week, that month, or the rest of the seasons of the year. What do I want my life to feel like?
I want my life to be full of love. Unconditional love. I want Peace, abundance, Grace, creativity, joy, laughter, friends, travel, prosperity…So every day I pray and meditate on those things. I am making a goal board to reflect what I want and how I want life to feel, so I have it in my mind, and work towards it. I have goals.
It’s not doing just one thing, it is a combination of thoughts and habits. You can’t just decide that this or that is going to change, then go back to bed. You work at it. I am changing my thoughts, doing counseling, doing the homework, praying, reading, doing, following the goodness.
I am approaching things differently and concentrating on love and grace. I am doing everything I can do be better every day. And so far, it is working. Positive changes are happening. The people around me, the results, the outcomes, the reactions and outcomes.
There is travel being planned. There are friends with whom I am reconnecting, the house is becoming my home, where love and everything comforting to me lives.
And I am excited, for the first time in a long time, about the future. I am excited about the completion of Spring, as life is renewed in many ways. I am excited for the summer and all the travel and adventures promised around the corner. I am looking forward to the Fall and discovering what that season holds. And last, I am looking forward to the winter, and the completion of the year. Just because it was a difficult start to the year, doesn’t mean that it cannot be one of the best years of my life, one of the richest, one of the deepest.
I know that my angels go with me, watching over all that is done. I can’t say that I am lost, I can say that I am on my way. If I truly have faith that we can make the life we want, then I must believe. I know deep down that God has His plan and that He wants me to be happy too. And that is the plan for the rest of the seasons of this year.
Until then, I do the work, pray, and believe with all of my heart.