For Peace and Comfort

In light of what how I feel in my own soul – a  Read this slowly and thoughtfully. And let htere be peace where there is chaos.

Blessing in the Chaos – Jan Richardson

To all that is chaotic in you,
let there come silence.

Let there be a calming of the clamoring,
a stilling of the voices
that have laid their claim on you,
that have made their home in you,
that go with you even to the holy places
but will not let you rest,
will not let you hear your life
with wholeness or feel the grace
that fashioned you.

Let what distracts you cease.
Let what divides you cease.
Let there come an end to
what diminishes and demeans,
and let depart all that keeps you in its cage.

Let there be an opening into the quiet
that lies beneath the chaos,
where you find the peace you did not think possible
and see what shimmers within the storm.

The Conclusion

I wrote this almost two years ago and found it as I was going through old notes I had written.  It still speaks as strongly today as it did then.

The Conclusion

Know why  I am, so hard on you? Because I have  walked through the fires in the pits of hell and by the grace of God, I have come through. So if you are going to be in my life, be fucking present.

I have earned the right have someone present. I have earned the right to be loved. I have earned the right to matter. I have earned the right to be comforted. I have earned the right to be cherished.

There is so much you take for granted because you do not even see the brilliance in the human being in front of you.

I have done all of this with no comfort. No arms, or kindness to hold me. It has all been alone. I did handle it, but it was so hard. So very hard.

So this is me, the good bad and the ugly. But I am me. This is me.

Ada 6/17/15