Since last May, life has been full of doom and gloom. Knowing, seeing that Mom was declining and her eventual; passing. Dad moving in. The harsh reality that you pretty much have to give up your own life to take care of an elderly parent – through no fault of theirs. It is just the situation, and you take it on, because you love them more than words can say. Seeing Dad decline and pass. And then the demise of the relationship.
But that is just life…and you deal with it. The universe doesn’t play favorites.
But in between the grief and the heartache there has to be some…fun. Somewhere, out there, before all the tragedy, I had a life. And I had a lot of fun. I think part of getting through grief is reconnecting with the life you had before. While life will never be the same, it can’t be all sadness and doom. There must be smiles, and laughter and shared good times.
Somewhere out there, there has to be a fun class to take, or a fun date to have, or a fun experience to enjoy, a fun day, a fun something. I want to go on a fun trip somewhere warm and wonderful.
I have put in my time, I have done my duties and done them well. Now, it is time to enjoy this life. I am exhausted from sadness. I want to see the sun, feel it on my skin, feel the fresh air on my fingertips and just shed this skin of the last year.