Life has been quiet as of late, which is more than welcome. We all need those quiet times, to reflect, regroup, enjoy, smile, listen to music, smell the roses, and just be. That requires slowing down a bit and focusing in on what you really want. And I really want a bit of fun. It is much needed, as all a=work and no play makes for a very dull and not well lived life.
And so it is, a wonderful quiet mixture of fun this summer. Nothing loud and outrageous, nothing too out of the ordinary, but only that which feeds the soul and makes me smile. And laugh, and feel good, and love, and wonder and appreciate. And also find Peace.
It’s quite interesting how Peace and fun seem to go together, one of those unlikely couples that makes no sense at first, until you take a closer look. Life is all about balance, and when we, and our lives, are not in balance, there is also no or little Peace. Peace is found when balance is restored.
And for far too long it has been hard work, no play, sacrifice and giving of everything I am and have. And it is time to relax, breath and have fun. I have been going out of my way to have fun, quiet, boring satisfying fun. And what qualifies as fun? Well, that depends on the person. But for me, it is enjoying and pampering myself a bit. Mowing the lawn and enjoying the smell of fresh cut grass. I have cooked delicious meals for myself, read a few books, watched my favorite guilty pleasure shows, enjoyed long conversations with friends and good wine.
There has been working out, running, pushing my body past where it wants to go and what it wants to do. Staying motivated and figuring out the future will come, those decisions always do. But I am learning the importance of simply enjoying.
And something wonderful is happening, a side affect. It is that I am opening up, slowly, surly opening my heart and soul to the world again. Letting it all pour into me and wash over me, taking all the impurities with it. Another side affect is facing fear, and finding out there is nothing on the other side but freedom.
I have allowed myself to ask of others, which is something very new. I am listening to what I want, and asking those who can help. There is been jetskiing holding on for dear life and the water and wind simultaneously whipping through my hair. And them my friend holding on for his life as I drove, becoming airborne many times as I went into the waves at high speed. I felt free, and wild, and happy. There was a rock about 8 feet high to jump into the water. It had been 30 years since I jumped like that, and at first it was scary. But I did it. Again and again. And each time it was easier and more fun. And then a group of kinds came and jumped without hesitation. That is where I want to get again.
And this quiet fun of summer will get me there. I have started dating again, though no one special at this point. I am making choices just for myself, something that is very scary. I always though I would be called selfish, but it hasn’t happened. There has been support and I have gotten everything I have asked for, and prayer for.
And that is what we are here for, in this life. So listen to your soul, drink life in with everything you have, and let it fill you completely, up to the top, brimming over, making you whole, filling in the cracks.