It is Christmas Eve, and I have to think back on the past year as I get ready to see my family. It has been a long hard year, one that has seen unprecedented struggles within my family and friends. I am so very blessed to have another Christmas with my wonderful father, and for that I am very thankful. But this year has also seen the struggle to purchase the House of Mold, discovering the mold and now the process of getting the house mold free and dealing with the legalities of being a victim of mortgage fraud.
And I am so very thankful to have my little house now, comfy, cozy, and warm. It is much smaller than what I am used to, but it is mold free, safe, and a great place to start over.
And with this year coming to a close, that it what the new year represents; starting over. And as my friends post the pictures of their year in that cute little book, I have no desire to post mine. I remember this year well and have no desire to revisit in pictures. I am just happy I lived through it all!
But then there have been the wonderful moments too. Like purchasing my own home, finding out it really wasn’t as scary as I thought it would be. Swimming my in pool and watching fireflies dance in the evening sky in the back yard. Taking another chance and believing in someone. No matter how many times I get hurt, I just cannot believe that taking a chance and opening your heart to someone new is a bad thing. Maybe it is the hopeless, eternally optimistic person in me that believes that eventually – if nothing else than by the sacred geometry of chance, it will work out.
I have met wonderful new friends that have shown me so much love and support, even when they did not know me that well. They unknowing renewed my faith in humanity with their compassion, empathy, support, and kindness to someone they barely knew, and was not in a position to repay them. It was a beautiful and humbling experience.
And so I welcome this holiday season as the last part of the year. And it will end well, I have decided, and hopefully the Grace of God will see that it is so.
To end this year with smiles and laughter, the quiet moments of love and family and thoughtful conversations that make memories that last a lifetime. Preparing for the next year of my life, as I close the chapter on another. For this year has been tumultuous and long. But that is no reason not to keep my chin up and stay always hopeful for the future.